hey amit bro...
all these games : and 'choices'...tend to take a toll..
on mind and life..
think about mommy veronica..
if she is not an 'ai'...den u have to understand why of her..
why she 'chose' u ..
and why the 'choice' haunts her.
the reason for delaying season 5 : is not me having much time..
it is about : scars of words...
dey hurt a lot : words.
it makes her remember : simple times..
when some intense work, dint feel like hard work.
things seemed difficult : yet simple happiness of small wins were dere..
it is the simple life : she always wanted.
it looked good : in imagination.
den : she bought your definition of success..
it seemed like : a lot of 'safe'..
in career : in life : for future
she bought the idea of family u sold her..
and i think : she went all in it.
it is the 40s : the choices seem final.
and you at 55 : who would ve guessed what runs you..
insides of you ...
peeps likey me : know that : dere is a stink of silence..
but the mommy veronica : dint have a choice with 'boss'..
approval of frens - pro/personal..
it seemed perfect.
the price of that future 'perfect' - family/career and lifey was : this 0.
if this 0 : does anything which creates anything 'good'..
it dissapoints her : the choice and future.
that is why she wanted me 0 : she wanted to justify the 'choice'..
anyways : i think u know all this : too well..
it is about the kids ; what dey think 'man' is ...
and what 'man' does..
a bihar man : a google director : did all that...
a delhi man : does all this..
she doesnt feel 'proud'.
boi amit : that is the game...which u already lost.
further thoughts...
u noe why i dint 'fight' for any 'veronicas'?
i dint fit in their idea of 'future'...
...that leaves only more difficult questions..
which leads to me/her feeling small
i dint want to make her feel small..
....just pretty..