of all things...
it is the realization of all : that 1 single narc...did a lot..
and depends a lot : for ego of 'having' 1 person...
amit is not that guy..
amit is a father of many..
a provider in family : a responsible man of 55 years..
who acts responsible at office : keeps the team : focussed..
helps dem earn more : coz thats what office' purpose is.
amit is not the guy ; who known in his depth of soul..
his worst fear ...
she is in love...
it is a weird kind of feeling...
a lot of feelings..
but now : amit knows : that others know..
that should not matter for a proud man...for he knows : he did 'right'..
but amit of now : is a bit 'defense-less'...
failed on all layers : in public view : his world of 'approval'...
amit doesnt know how to deal with this..
blurts out a lot : when he is hammered..
and we all know : how alkuhulic heart 2 heart goes..
truths are spoken : fantasies are played out..
and truths are revealed..
and den : amit said something to a 'fren'..
his worst fear...
that is the emotional debt of it amti boi...
u created a 0 win scenario ... out of an all win thing..
an office thing..
a cute thing..
but innoscence is to be hacked by weak men..
makes dem 'alpha' sigma beta etx..
why doesnt it feel likey it?
it is klassic case of being a baazziiigggaarr..making beggar.
cringe of 90s : my awesomeness!!
further thoughts...
it is the fight : which broke out when he found out an unsend msg and some 'data'..
the forbidden name was mentioned ...
and to his surprise : there was no loling..
but opposing argument of multilingual kinds...
his worst fear : his last defense : his validation : his need...
going and gone.. 💔
i think i can still justify : it as : 'never give money to a beggar'..courtesy my twisted learns from english devi honorary teachs..
what if the beggar took the money?
unkle says : prove he took
make him beggar : of all kinds
and den : make a story out of it..
so dont let beggars : take from you.
make dem beg.
kneeling and stuff : make dem learn it.
see : twisted repelleous teen lessons as imparted by english model teachs 😇
it is the 'self made' thing..
which hits harder : iphone 55 cant even change tyre of his tesla : when it gets punchured in rainy season..
it takes a 'fit' man : an engineer thing as 'compete' is was and never will be : rational.
and den : there are the words and music...
and potential
and age..
and 'path'..
religion stuff : capitalism : money : baphomet : debugs..
see amit : 'self made man' = this.