my experiance with 'apologies' ...
is like due 'rent'..
it is something : which keeps eating 'time'..
a fear of different sorts : which consumes 'now'..
it is about respect of 'time' as well..
apologies : evolve..
questions become 'answers' with 'time'..
with time : 'unsaid apologies' become 'regrets'..
and doubts also tend to add to dem.
It took me 2 decades to face my worst fear..
an apology : when i could not be there ...
It made sense ..
and then it dint ...
life happened : and it was good...
but the weight lifted off that 'apology'..
20 years 'lighter'..
that requires a lot of sacrifice of ego : more as it ages.
impossible after few years. 😁