the reason for me being absolutely "confident and sure"..
about frens | familia | society | religion..
is these 2 lives..
i am kinda 'blessed' for living these 2 lives..
believe me : i hated everything for 2 decades..
it is only 'time' : which made sense of it all..
now : when i have gone through 2 totally different lives..
the 'role' and 'influence' of every 'pretend' ..
is quite clear..
it is a surreal experience to have..
but scars : they make you 'unique'.
and scars : dey always have a story..
an ugly story : which has lessons.
further thoughts...
when u ve faced every form of 'savagery'..
they dont 'scare' u anymore...
thats what used to make a 'man' in my lineage.
..thats why we different : south delhi vs immigrants 'upbringing - values, skills'.