My discovery of happiness...has a childish tale to it..
i liked video games : since age 5..
ever since i started exploring the village of chirag dilli by 'foot'..
video game parlor : became my love..
my addiction - my eternal veronica..
but reality : was something different..
studies and born to 2 teachers..
meant video games were 'forbidden'.
to peeps like me : forbidden is just another word..
to do it..
hide it..
and still do it
sure : dint know what i was doing...a kid doing kid things..
but as i grew older : had the money..
i dint have time..
and worse : i dint have the 'drive' or 'will' to persist on it..
i knew : it would take 20 hours ...
and i have only 2..
the 'flow' : never there.
i had a ps3 : but no will to play it.
that was quite weird : considering this was what i wanted since 5.
the nature of 'happiness' : became clear..in some dimensions
time : changes 'love'..
and love : sometimes is just 'memories'
Just to confirm : i got a 1 day launch of Korean Wii : for my niece.
it was language locked..
but i knew some homebrew would come along..
i gave it my niece : who felt like 'same' as 'me'..
inf* kinds..
she loved it...
for few years..
and grew out of it...
by 12th klass.
never really loved it.
but liked it.
That was some lesson : in happiness..
in needs/wants : habitus
relativity of 'things' and 'people'..
it always changes.. so does 'love'
dogs, videogames, computers, veronica -> alkhuhul...-> 0 ..
it goes on...
in most dimensions of love and hence : hate.
It does question : the nature of entitlement and happiness..
does 'inheriting' something - land money or fame..
can provide the 'happiness' of owning it..making it..?
the journey of it?
i think it is the journey..the path..the moments..
rich : their needs/wants are different...
and others : have it differently..
the self approval : of win/loss...
in unmatched to society's claps.
all the habitus and professional circle of mine - know it now..
their happiness : and mine - are entirely different..
but i am happy with mine, but they are not..
they dont have their own version of happy : just page 3..
how it torments them : having 0 control on 0
control : is happiness?