dear 'hope' 🪔

dear 'hope' 🪔
...i dont think u noe ur - nature..
and your power.

it is too ironic : to be real and live..
...but it needs to be said...

coz 'regrets' : is what it is all about.

i guess i can relate to the quantum mind..
caught between ego and pride with 0 of future..

i guess - it is what 'rich' folks call - fear.

the nature of fear : is build on exponential of its - growth.
...if belief takes time to build..
and is linear : with much less - acceleration..

fear is exponential...and it consumes 'time' : in a rather unique ways..
anxiety, inaction - and ultimate dependence on addictions

addictions are not just - products..
addiction is - people and 'approval'..

the worst part about being me..
is witnessing people : becoming effect of their own - self destructive - choices..

the ego and company - makes it fun and thrilling
a public moment of glory...
yet the same people - are nowhere to be found wen u fell ..

it is the public fall u fear..
for u being alone and falling - is of 0 consequence..

but falling for the approval of dem..
is your fear.

talk about making mountains out of molehill
...ur ego makes ur impossible : with time++

that is the worst part about being me..
...noeing - the person who can have most in the world..
would end up having none of what she desires..
for her free will - would make sure of it

aint pretty the worst gift to have it ?
all it attracts is devil and dammned..beasts of different kinds..
some pretty, some smooth, some sensei..
all with 'free advise' - which never worked for dem or the world..

but would work for ur 'pretty'...
..and yet 'fear' would makey u - 'obey' it. 😵‍💫

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSu5nAQ7uZw