festivals were dere..

festivals were dere..
but it dint felt like a party...

celebrations were dere..
but the cheers, never felt like it....

happy was dere..
but happiness was not to be found..

oh she loved..
but the experiance of being cared, wasnt dere

it feels like she lived..
but the feeling of being alive ...
...wasnt dere...

she want to tell it all...
but the 1 she wants to it most to..

further thoughts...

inspired by "गुलमोहर के फूल"
...superhit romanchik novel by Sirajuddin Daula Varma's cancer balls 😝

it is 1 of dem - 'unkown novelists' of 90s..
he made 2 middkle klass iq budget movies - gadha varma and jaahil java saahil of it.
both - flopped - but the writer : did makey flowers from cancered balls. 😵‍💫