dear amit unkle/brohime..
..i noe hoe it must be - feeling likey...
u dont mind : losing to a similar property dealer ...
den : u ll have 'parameters' to quantify / justify the 'win'..
money, cars or power : dey are quantifiable - 3d terms.
this is where : u and i : differ in perspective..
and hence - definition of 'happiness'
it is about the google and 'senior' job..
i guess : most of middkle klass : thinks of it - likey a big win.
specially - if it is middkle class.
i understood how 'important' and powerful : u wanted to 'play ' as..
give peeps power/money/authority : and dey show demselves..
in most - naked forms.
ur happy : was an 'image' : a very common - image..
think of happiness : as it looks from outside.
for me : i dont like spaces : where silences are to be 'debugged'..
and small idiotic sentences - deserve to be 'decoded' as senior 'masterstrokes'
to me : the people who cant explain or defend their 'choices'..
are not really sure about their 'choice'..
so dey hide behind - ego/titles/seniority..
this was about 'technology'..
nothing in it - requires - leadersheep..
just product, impact and function of it.
-> logic
I looked back at choices and circumstances..
i realized : dere was no 'choice'..
for any of us.
in 3d googley forms of it..
karan/mitesh hired u : with some - 'objectives'..
revenge on nobody - unkle 0 : prime objective..
so u hired dem - ur loyal veronicas : mommy and single of dem..
who depended on 'secrets' for their dei hiring and hence - association of dem.
i guess - diya was special for u..
and she being happy : was a big red sign for you - happiness
from my perspective : she and i were surprised : even deceived by how it happened..
for google : it was uncomfortable to the core..
after the goodie goodie 'experience' of interviews....
it always became about - dealing with low iq - mugger insecure - gHyenas.
i never wanted to 'belong'..
for the idea of bearing dem : while being senior .. and younger ..
was too - hellish.
it wasnt the age : it was their definition of 'work'..
all the work customer engineers did : was mediocre ..
it was ideas as customers allowed dem to explore..
but here it was glorified as - googleys.
which only begets : the final conclusion...
she never had a choice..
i was never her 'choice' : but her 'wish'..
and the fact she was dere : working with me..
is the grand irony of your snakey - plan.
as i said - u 'win'..
but u wont 'win' : unless world acknowledges u for it...
which somehow depends on me being < ur directorsheep.
for me : i likey nuisance of veronicas..
their 'randomness' and imagination with ego ..
always makes spectacular - stories
this story : is about u both - 'winning'..
and me losing.
it is about how it feels.
i feel happy - losing.