zee past...
dont wait up for more 'updates'...
..i ran these last few years of my life...
...as what 'my life' : would look like : if i gave up everything - burden.
it is sort of a reverse engineers approach..
objectively : in society or capitalism : we are programs..
society programs us for public behaviors..
the line of good/bad/acceptable..
and how we do it - words, manners and intents..
is a product of - upbringing and life - experiences - "habitus"
i ve 'crashed' - many times..
seemingly - out of - circumstances...
i wondered : the pattern of it..
you were my 'triggers' - the I/O which was making me - slow
the RPC : were these industry - baldes - 'leaders'...
as we isolated each 'function' over the years..
the debugging of 'self' : became quite obvious..
both were the 'same' ..
the 'manners' and 'tools' differed.
i thought it would be a 'mental' exercise..
but as I went along ... it became a mental/physical activity..
as above : so below
as within : so without...
became the 10 words : which defined - the 'balance' of it all...
in a way : i undid few decades of - intentional damage..
i dont want to - bleh blah any more...
there is literally - no need for me...to do this - anymore..
it is about the product..
and debugs of 30 years of - psy/op and results of cowards and snakes.
the relationship - between narcissists and snakes - became clear..
it became - a lame : logical/algorithmic progression..
propagated - by lazy of society : by weak of mind : for powerful
it became a pattern..
i understood why - it has to be this way..
and even - 'future' of this pattern..
i am putting all that - learned in few books..comics..
and what not of it.
i understand - your 'need' to 'spy' and scheme..
but my 'need' or 'want' to address you : is gone now..
u cant - ask narcissists to reform..
inside : dey know dey are snakes..
and would devour their own kids : to feel - bit better/justified.
anyways : here is to less posts..
and more - work..
coz : only capable can - work.
further thoughts...
it is the irony of - memories..
sure it may be cpu cycles wasted..
...if it were not for those wasted cycles...
i wont ve known - what to do or 'create'.
aint that a paradox?
the part which u hate : gives u fuel to create 😇