dearir - mau mau..
...i hope the holey - spying 'duties' : as queen veronica 'ordered' u to do..
are getting - over.
to be honest - i never liked her..
i appreciated a person : who is focussed on 'growing'..
we both : could work and make good - deals.
but that was - all dere to it..
she reminded me - of innocence
...of a mom : working for best of her - daughter.
the 'intent' : seemed too pure..
and even - worth 'gaming' for.
but it got - perverted..
i dint noe - amit or her : really.
it was likey : i dint want to think - 'worst' in her..
it is sort of - self bias..
or getting manipulated by 'past'..
in a way : i wanted to run away from my past so byd..
i never realized : her was the same..
it is likey a 'scent' : which narcissists smell and hunt for.
i went out of 'logic' : to not to see her : as my past which was still dere.
the logic : i needed to 'calibrate' the 'nature' of past..
the pattern of it..
in all reality : i was feeding few families - in holey duties of 'religion'.
if she ever gathers the courage to tell u the full story..
it might turn out - amit kumar' director-sheep : was result of his 'connects'..
with kavita sharma..
who used my personals - frens familia - patterns..
to 'teach' it to her - indirectly : to 'control' the outcome.
it is dem 55 iq balded : using the 'juniors' to play - god.
i have a theory : narcissist dont reform..
dey just multiply likey - viruses.
i dint think : she was a narc..
but sure became 1.
it was all the 'world' she created around her..
the googley world of kewl - doing lil ; expecting much..
= googleys.
i wish i could ve helped..
and i did try : putting all my 'past' on line..
for i kinda knew : hoe desperate dey all elderly are.
we never had - anything..
just a curiosity : a metaverse/possibility which she created..
for the 'quantum' to make good team members..
was 1st of her - weird experiences.
it is weird : never to have friction..
and 1nce u experienced that : dere is no going back.
wen she grows up a bit - mommie..
i hope u make her understand : it was not really - anything..
but a lesson.
we are opposites - not twin flames..
ingredients : to make a flame..
not extinguish it.
thanks for all the 'relaying'...
she is smart u noe : predictable - smart.
... i do hope she tries to be a good mother...
coz i think : in the end - thats all we wanted.
take care...
rest in comics : coz god noes : dey ll be 'spicy' now 😍
further thoughts...
this hole 'master- plan'...
of depraving me of my money..
isolating me by making lies..
and stopping - career in legal and rumours of it..
was not new to me - i ve changed 'domains/careers' - multiple times...
sydly - she bet her 'all' on googlei lies..
miscalculation.
so do take care of her...she ll 'need' it.
i lost my kids/dogs - home - career or even any opportunity at it..
coz the mommie : and her 'opinions' destoyed my career..
or even home - for a family-less father to even claim a kid..
no home, no family, ho hope.
i never had - any : i was not allowed.
all coz : the queen : played a googley game.
i think she asked for it.