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zee past...i cant get over the masterpiece..we all ended up - creating..
..i simply term it - my will winning over urs..
but : lemme explain..
for last few years..
i realized i was fighting for an identity..
which was being 'denied'...dilluted...
by what i used to call - 'home'..
home : whose definition
: is deeply defiled by religion/culture - page 3..
home and happy : are deeply 'related'..
for u : i think my home : looked shiney and 'nice' from outside..
and u ll take away pieces of it..
in your seniority, relative-ness : age entitlement etx..
never letting it - finish..
the reason : was a layer deep...
the home : is built on an identity..
happy becomes norm in it...
it does not require - approval or guests..
but your 'homes' are hacked version of page 3 : happyness and approval..
u take what u likey..
but in the end : it is never complete..
the 'identity' of it : is not yours..
but a demon or a desire : deeply embedded in your bios..
it aint your desire : but your illusion of happy..
the game of it..
got over a few months ago...
but i guess : geriatrix become confused weh faced with 'new'..
the mugging : the approval ; the hole baba-ness..
doesnt seem to help wen its - logic.
your current 'state' : is what i call - hell...
it is knoeing : dere is not exit : just consequences..
leaving ur kinds : was me leaving hell..
for which i paid 😆
i am home now : and u are at ur homes : which are hell on earth..
looks 'nice' : has 'cars' and 'app-roval'...
yet lives in fear : every second of it..
it is just a feeling..
u never knew - 'home'.
further thoughts...
i guess the biggest 'qualm' is all this - bleh blah coming from mee unkle 0 delusional of 0 approval..
..u better have it from some wef/wwe white boi dei equality phd x pdf of it..
that is a lot of ball-shaking of balding kinds..
mee : no do it : history and baldies : testament of it all.