Zee passt...
..the beauts about this 'gestalt' of mine..
it starts with defining your - (2,2)
..ie how does your 'happy' and 'content' : looks like..
what purpose does it have..
and what is the 'shape' of that 'utopia' - in 3d ..
the 'feeling' it - invokes.
the problem - is finding out the 'feeling' it invokes..
..it involves : u comparing your different versions of 'happy'..
as they happened along your 'time-line'...and how the 'happy' of it : changed over years.
i remember : quite a few of them.
1 may be 'pathetic' to most..
but that is the beauty of your - happy.
My happy : was in a hotel in California..San Diego..
...my 1st trip outside the country...
and it was 'tense'...
this happened after a month or 2...
the 'objectives' : were achieved..
and for the 1st of my few years working..
i felt like - living in 'now'..
and observing the 'moment'
i was alone..
the hotel was nice and quiet..
and my 'view' : was a window...which just had a pretty office complex..
mostly - deserted..
but it had - trees : lots of beautiful trees...
lots of leaves...and it was - pretty.
it was not happy - of being anything..
but it was gratitude : felt and appreciated...
wen i could really observe : the beauty of feeling 'home'..
in a foreign country ... in a temp room...
for a view : which did not have - any 1.
it was part of the puzzle : my happy was personal ...
and it came from 'inside'.
the hotel had much pretty rooms - but this 1 bed studio sort of thing..
felt like a home i would get...
it was not even the view : it was perspective...
what i chose to feel..
and how it felt back.
as within : so without
as above : so below.
further thoughts...
the beauty of the 'moment'...
i knew i would never have it again...
..i had to live it...dere and den.