zee past...

zee past...
as i look back... i cant help wonder...hoe pentidasses' hinduism : is pure - mk-ultra..
...same as green / white religions - but only much - 'confusing'...
...lemme share my 'personal' experience with it..

my 1st pure encounter with it..
was after death of mee fathere..
it was hinduism : in its all bolly x dharmic - confusion

in tradition..i was supposed to treat and respect - my elder brothel in law..
ajay sharma : in his superior - surnamed - glory..

and enact : my father' pending decisions..
get the other - sister : married to the guy she chose : he approved..

i did all that ...
but my brothel in laws : were absolute - 'gems'..
insecure, incapable, unable to earn a decent buck ..

but dey ll instruct me : hoe to live a small lifey ..
to not make dem look, a bit small...

i dint care : life kept rewarding me..
career was work and veronica..
so money multiplied...
but so did : the jealousy of lesser men.

money, time respect : was not enough..
dey wanted me to live dere - misery ..
their - karma..

it wont stop dere..
dey ll enter my home..
and 'convert' every1 : into same - incapable lazy entitled idiots.

their 'burden' : dint stop dere..
dey started 'influencing' : my life..
wen and hoe - marriage is compulsary..

and how it should be done : approved by dem..

short : dey wanted worst destitute family : as my 'match'..

it made dem feel : better : equal
relatable..
and - worthy : despite obvious - 'man' differences.

it was - all religious mkultra..
the flavor changed - it became ugly fatty sugary cancerier useless..
klassic regular flavor of proudness of varmas and their enunch saala of saahil jaahil varma..

and his 'java-ness'..
dont have money, no house or address or friends..
but 'varma' of nobodies : was their - 'entitlement'..

i guess dey really believed in this lame - yellow mkultrra..
and dey had to ...for their fathere : was an absolute beggar hore of a provider..
varma : was dere only 'cope'...
validated by mugged -words manners and lies of struggle..
wen it was - generational laziness, justified by lies of bollywood kinds.

the reason i am sharing this..
it becomes - unbelievable : fantasy..

which people sell on : and get sold on..

wen it is just merit and grit with skills...
but religion or cope of it : becomes 'truth' : past = future for believers in 0 bc book.

for dem : dey noe and 'believe' : future is not 'good'..
and in their mind : dey wont be making dere own 'future'...but white boi...
or some pentidass - will.

talk about : a self defeating : self demeaning - book.

which are ll those 0 bc books ...
lizards laugh at us u noe..
dey really got peeps believing - we live in a 0 sum game - world.

we dont : but we do live in a world of cowards..
where 'new' scares the 'old'. 😵‍💫