u noe.. I am in my childhood home
.. where I learned 'value' of ram.. my fathers
... much symbolic for me...
land is of my grandfathers
the floors are build by my father
.. and I returned to claim it.. when it was falling apart
it was impossible for me..
to even consider returning to it..
the home which has taken all my fathers..
in some random coincidence of it
I thought it was haunted..
I hated it..
for their death.. seemed like cause of me... trying to provide for all their - burdens of relatives
but the more I ran from it..
the more it haunted me
not anymore...
I understood the quantum nature of universe..
and we challenged each other..
and now we at 'home'
it is Synchnocities which lead me now
it is not needs or wants..
I am blessed.. and all I have..
is a leaf to show for it 😵💫😁😇
further thoughts...
It was my worst fear...
Abandoned for 20 years.
I tried to forget about it.
It was never baldies.. My worst fear was 'this '...
and I was lead to it..
In worst yet best ways..
A 0 house and a 0
A cave for a wolf.
A birth right.
I 'right' needs to 'claimed '
Karma is cost of dharma
And ancestral karma.. had to be paid..
I had to back my roots... and restore the respect of 'name'
I was named for it. Wished for it😵💫