my fascination is the idea of 'God'...
...it changes - 'shape' or 'mood'...
i wonder if it is self reflection of my state of mind...or what i need...
or what i am asked to do..
the best analogy : is like training a dog...
i am being 'trained' like a dog...for most part of my life...
the hate or love or jealousy : requires 'time' to focus...
but all i hear : is a coach : yelling at me : for missing the point : again..
the most weird part : i think s/he is funny and more lol than me...
u got to hear how many cringy jokes which are made on me... 😂
got to start laughing at my 'choices' more : dey were quite funny....
i seem to keep him entertained..🤪
further thoughts...
from my perspective...sure energy food matters...
and i think that is 0 'security' which any 0 should and can have..
to make a guilt free - religion less world..
but : i ve also realized something else ...
happiness : is a choice..
sure the path can be made - easier...
but humans : have relative 'happy/syd'...
and some like happy : wen others are syd...
my syd realization : is sure energy/food : matters a lot more..
but 'mind engineering' : is compulsory : to remain happy after - material sufficiency..
aint that quite a pickle?
it is a pickle : coz material sufficiency gives people - choices..
and most of the time : peeps want to go - yolo for decaddes...
mental / self engineering : becomes more difficult with 'richness'...
the dichotomy of money or security..
..peeps end up reliving the trauma : which others forced on dem..material lack approval etx
so : material sufficiency : is also : the catalyst for self destruction..
thats why kids and education are important...baldies : are example of such trap : of 'if i had money, ill be a good person'...cope of it.
i think it makes sense : why kids/education is heavily polluted and 'loaded'..
if dey are allowed to think : dey might discover what really makes dem individually happy : as dey grow out..
that dampens masters' capitalistic plans : where kids consume and spend money on discovering happiness by page 3 - teens today - bolly/holly - cars/peeps - page 3 of it..
and den : it is too late : debt runs u : a cell producing 'monthly' quantified loosh : consistent with days - quantity of it.