for amit bro and gang...
it is an existential crisis : for me being 'alive' and 'thriving'...
...it is a social page 3 phenomena...people dont take kindly to 'doles'..
i guess : my state of mind...has been different from last few years...
ever since my last surviving parent died in corona,
i questioned the nature of 'affection'..
her death : meant all the destitutes encouraged by her..
came after me, with their worst 'sharma' and 'varma' intents.
and i really dont noe : what made dem do it..
i gave up all the money : the houses..
and even cars of it.
i kept a broken nano : and bought a cycle..
i needed to heal my body and mind.
...u ll get what u ll need...
...not what u 'want'....
and that is the law of my life..
which has been - constant
..and thats is what i needed.
all i wanted : was a clean separation..
i dint likey the world : or what it expected me to do..
the truth was too simple : yet too illogical / bitter..
dey wanted my 'wins' : without my 'scars'.
my 'scars' : dint suit the 'wins' i scored..
or the money i inherited.
that was a humbling realization..
world wanted me to be shrill and illogical with money..
they expected me to show money : and den make dem a part of it...
or simply..
dey wanted to take all i had ..
and den : blame me for having it...
it was too illogical : to even address..
but the 'plan' was google backed.
so it became a choice : if i dint break : some1 would.
u would : i wont. 🙏