I dont think peeps got what i was doing in last few years..
..a 0 fell out of the 'system'..forced out of it..
not coz of 'work'...but coz of 'compliance'..
This pattern : peeps stealing work/money...
muddling it up : with confusion and guilt..
and keeping the 'wins'...while i scapegoat for fail..
has been with me - repeating.
I dint think much of it : thought i was meeting bad peeps.
the stink was something else...
a virus in my familia : was inducing the same behavior.
these are the peeps : you feel sorry about.
you help dem : confuse love-bombing/ack of 'help' as love/relationships.
these are the things : which make it an INF* thing..
the 1% problem.
the leader problem : the empaths who can lead..
but dont or cant : coz nepotists of the world : 'know better'.
for me : a shadow of luser elder siblings..
and a bro likey loser failure of ignou : formed that shadow.
the family : was sabotaging me : tainting my opportunities..
the peeps who came along : with my acceptance of their 'shortcomings'
these are the people : who cost u the most : your future.
Google bit bois : had no chance : if there was no 'support' of my mediocre 0 'family'.
they make 0s : all i had to do was to kick dem out of my life..
and the balance : restores.
all hockus pockus : goes back : and we regain our normal places in world.
Just 2 loser : hiding their loses in my shadow.
I paid for 20 years of interest on stupidity in last 3 years.
that was my personal debug.
I have no doubts of doing well now.
tc and tx.
further thoughts...
a best friend and a mother figure...
i never had a chance to 'succeed' or win.
it is gravity of cockroach jar : peeps never facing their loses..
finding excuses for it : lack
peeps live their hole lives : being scared. It multiplies : becomes 'normal'.
lusers : who cant compute : but tech made it 'common arcade'.
an arcade in which logic is supreme.
u have to debug 'gravity' of yours..
a fren : is an 'equal'...so is a 'sibling'..
equality : never earned : just assumed.
equality : is a false concept : we equal in 'capabilities' but not 'application' or 'choices'.
hence : religion of choices : # : 9 choices.