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when i tell u : i was 'wanted' by 'other side'...
on all 'levels' : it may start looking 'real' now...
coz : i dont 'bent' : on any levels...
there is a certain art of 'decision making' involved..
'choices'.
thats the 'gestalt' : which i 'debugged'...
its abstract : ...just like maths...
coz even 'maths' is our relative understanding of 'balance' of 3d physics..
something : which doesnt demean u..
not all goody- goody : coz guilt is not then cause of it..
it is the effect of it..
something : which would start making sense : coz it computes on all levels.
it is freedom which unkle offers you : makes u 'earn' it..
not in whys of 'debt'..
but of 'purpose'...
coz : the soul has a purpose which conscience cannot deny..
just delay..
lets spare the guilt this lifetime.
further thoughts...
for me in religious sense : i had to see and witness demons..
in live 3d forms...
it worked the other way : the demons made be believe in God.
U have to start thinking in terms of balance..
i was alive : in mind and 'actions'...yet bound by protocols of social kinds and few legal..
there are 2 choices : despair or act out...
on face of it..
the abstract way of thinking of this : why are you still 'alive'..
which 'force' is that : which keep u 'alive' or 'living this heaven/hell'?
no physics can justify 'will'...and its effects.
will is the real work : cultivating it.
failure is the 'cost'.