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it is just realizing 'impossible' is relative to few people..
for you : impossible is being 'alone'..
beauty : or what it gets you : is your 'entitlement'
the impossible is you changing after 40 years..
the 'pretty' : just wont let it happen
the kid : would always be an excuse to demand 'comfort'
the money : would always be a 'want' and 'need' : coz both are same for u
pretty is a gift : pretty peeps know it : suffer it : and learn who likes them for what...
it is a lot like being 'intelligent'..being used, sold and then : knowing how to use it.
our choices are perpendicular : our logic and our beliefs and 'reality'..are different.
your imagination is quite 'powerful'..
but imaginations have a time..
it is not my impossible : to not 'know' you..
it is quite possible for me : coz there are N pretty : who want to work and earn for respect of 'brain'..
i respect 21 hours of pretty in public..
not 4 hours of 'pretty' in pvt.
we different.
further thoughts...
what did i like? 🙃
i can share the answer now : it was the unbiased illogical natural bleh blah..
it sounds weird : but if i am dealing with 'logic' then : illogical is what would sound like 'change' to me ...u were the change : innocent bleh blah of normal page 3 life.. 🙂
the same bleh blah turned toxic : after it had 'intents' : to make me 'act'.
it was not google : it was u. 😇
my 'intents' : were to create a condition : where free will prevails..
i dint want to 'game' anything in new life which i was meant to create for my 0 -kid, dogs..
those 'wins' : were me making sure : u decide with 'logic' and 'money' - the real u.
but 'approval' won.
I hate approval : not looking for a 'mother'.
🤐
that 'innocence' of page 3 life : binge drinking in page 3 bar..
logic said dey decided all your 'happiness'..
it is always predicated on them being 'with u'...simpies and dimpies..
the useless and thee judges of useless : the page 3 royalty of restaurants and bars.
not my arena : not my game : but it ensured u ll pull in all those useless in this bleh blah..
sweetie : u were as innocent then as now : in teens ..raising teens.