zee baldies...
as you appear weaker hapless powerless gutless..
by each passing day..
my only satisfaction is : knowing you had full time..
to act right..
'time' is somehow : misrepresented as kukness...
sure : not proud of 3 years of bheh..
the bhel : became something else : a life of its own..
it showed another hidden aspect of baldie boy band ..
in public : for global : levels..
the ego of few ..
and the size of aspirations..
ask them 'nicely'..
remind dem..
do everything : to save : min collateral damage..
but i guess : choices were huge..
and the ego : needed a bigger payback..
i was amazed by mommy veronica : for multiple logical reasons..
i thought of me : as old guy..
i dint have to..
but i chose to..
it suited - purpose..
a veronica : was in similar crossroads..
i believed : it was really a 'choice'..
not for me : my path is quite consistent for last 30 years of it..
but for her : i think it was quite a 'choice'..
i never really imagined : the irony of ego vs logic..
something convnced her : lying to the person : you claim to 'like'..
is kewl..
and backstabbing : is nice..
and bread crumbing : is way of life..
and stalking : is career
and career > kid/family.
I really hope : they have earned like a zillion $$$ to have 'accomplished'..
this for last few years of their life..
time : did make choices through people..
nothing really changes in 'choices'..
but lot changed - in destinies....
nothing : but 'sureness' of dem..
somehow : paths seems less..
choices seems none...
the feeling : is somewhat different in different sides..
a lot of choices : yet it was only 1 'intent' from start..
and googlies : losing their choices : with consistency of logic and ego..
makes see : how lil u cared for veronicas' kid..
and how i did 'good' : by choosing 0 of it all. 🙂
further thoughts...
i think : its really : how we 'value' - 'time'..ours..
i think for most of googleys : being like a googley is a lot of 'pressure'..
muggary and smartness : are perpendicular for most years..
it is after years of hammers : 1 knows time/skill and 'value'
i valued my time as 'ability' to create things..
was good at destruction : but it takes lil effort..easy..
it takes a man : to think and create a new..
men of now : just housewives of office.