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Dear Modlits2a,
i think you can sense the 'anger' of baldies in air..
it is there : along with lots of hockus pockus
before all this started, about 4 years back...
i dint have a clue about hockus pockus..
seemed like 'joke' to me...
but then, i am the guy : who respects the unknown...coz i dont know it..
this discovery : was different..
it required complete dissolution of self bias : ego...
otherwise : the mind is too chaotic : to make sense of it..
usually rage, anger disappointment : take over, to override the thought..
which started it all..
for me : it became a quest : of finding or tracing my state changes..
the mood changes, what caused it..
few breathing techniques..
noticing how and when it changes..
i discovered it does work ... and its not logical..
a memory flashed before your mind...just random..
no context...yet it happens.
this 'debugging' : is quite difficult..discernment is the required quality.
it sounds weird...
but is awfully similar to love...
u just dont know : why...
but : the thought is too strong to repel..
logic fails...
hockus pockus seems similar..
something takes over and 'choices' : seem less or only 1...
i dont want to debug more of it...
just some 'protection' to understand it..
and own my 'choices'
meditation : seems like a very 'loaded' and boring world..
it is not meditation as people practice it..
it is some activity : which relaxes your brain..
either by overloading it...
or by freeing it..
a streneous physical activity : is a form of meditation
so it : actual meditation..
the problem with actual mediation for peeps like me...
is 'time' : it seems to take it away...
hence my meditation is different ...
fixing thing, debugging irrelevant stuff...
or just listening random music..
the purpose is to gain a new perspective of reality..
when stack seems to overwhelm you...
that new perspective : can be achieved by either kind of 'meditation'.
I know its saturday, and i seem so out of place...talking about 'stillness'...
but sweets : alcohol or those fruity margharitas/teas..
are your way of disconnecting from 'stack'..
there is not much difference : just page 3 and how pretty it looks.
Take care sweets, dont let a 0 guy take the buzz away...