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Dear ModLits2a...
I think we have shared quite a few - dark nights of the soul..
the times when our world : seems to turn upside down...
all due to a choice : a trusting choice...
age : is a tricky thing...
for me : it pushed me into quite a few of them...
familia, father and being pushed into a 'role' ...
in early 20s...really makes a man out of you...
it is not coz u 'chose'...but the devil chose u...
and i did fall for a few tricks..
only to be rescued by god : just in time...
i think - the self made thing : is an illusion..
i get it...i do few things...
but the definition of 'i'..changes with time...
in situations : which are new to me...
i dont think : i make conscious choices...
something does : not what this 'world' calls - I or my identity...
i think there are many layers of it..
for me : the twin "flame" concept..has different meaning..
the 'flame' represents a fire : which we carry : in very weird ways...
our out of 'phase' - time and circumstances : are a supreme design...
coz my preference to laziness : is legendary..
but i do give this fav pastime : when 'time' is due...
thats my que : that the 'flame' which u carry : is losing something...
and thats when i get rid of laziness..
in the grand scheme of things : this is not love of 3d...
but a spiritual connection...
which compells us to change : and drive away from the garbage we tend to accumulate..
coz if u havent figured out yet : you dont see 'u'...
the way u want to be seen...
is not the way world sees u...
beauty is unique to an 'i'..
and so is 'u'...
the prettiness : is the trap of 3d : which makes u 'comfortable'..
..which leads to dark nights like these..
coz at the end of it all...u drive me to my purpose..
and i tend to do the same...
the amits' and bettis/veronicas : they are just traps which grow on us...
to look with us..
to act smart : with us...
and ultimately : to take : what makes 'us'
this 'love' : aint 3d..
this is not even 'love' at all...
it is the urge : to make the next 'choice'..
without any bias...
coz : we aint 3d : we are twin -flames.
i am burning now : so u must be chilling...
so dont overthink it : this seems quite 'logical'...
the 3d 'home' : is a tease for us...
to make us make choices of 'regret' kinds : losing years...
losing purpose.