Dears ModLits2a,
I am quite consumed in some code : finally!
apologies for not writing soon : work is pending, and veronicas are watchin..
The wannabe mommy devis : are really out for 'blood'..
there are many stories there...but 1 can share here...coz its 'recent'.
In 2020 : i met a desperate mommy veronica..desperate for amits' approval.
This amit : was geriatric, nobody, neverbeen, suit boot, khijaab/hair dye painted leader.
He was this veronica' daddy/daddie : something complex, i never really cared.
This veronica was being rejected by amit : he hired many of these dolls : all stages, flavors : desperation of diff kinds.
This veronica : leaned on me to get noticed : successful : she was nice to work with.
She tried that old veronica algo : to get noticed by amit senior..and did what they do
This being a mommy of 40s with a daughter : i really wanted to be 'gentle and soft'
13 years of 'hindu marriage' and paying for N peeps joblessness : i was turned off by needy
She did her typical thing : create an emotional scar : which makes a relationship of dependent and delusional - layla majnu istyle.
I got bored, left : she didnt believe it.
Her 'high' standards of bihar/begaal murds : known to product 'superman's..dint really prepped her for a good engineer.
I am bound by 'gratitude'. It comes with a cost : respect any 'randomness' : it can be from god.
For a while : it seemed like it. Then it dint.
My questions : were not answered : as if they both revelled in it, drove 'power' from it.
I dont really get : hockus pockus and lower order thinking.
This went on for a while : i really dint want to hurt her : mommy and daughter things..
but the mommy used the empathy as weakness: used the questions : to paint 'demand' and 'glory'.
Gratitude : for people : is useless.
I hope u are done with teenage level thinking and algos.
i am using amit : for a dustbin : far away from our taj mahal : but as reminder for baldies..
a 'nazarbattu' for home.
I hope u understand and appreciate the effort.
Thanks luv.