life has weird patterns ...
i used to talk like 'this'... when i knew i had my grandfather and father
i knew i could not lose.
and now : a 0 father : knows he cant lose.
cant becomes 'wont' with time and skill.
an everything to lose -> nothing to lose
the reaction : pretty much the same.
...i knew when it all 'started'...
it was a reminder : people dont really change..
not 1ce they have tasted 'success' : the pattern for it.
my 'patterns' : were to be made 'on the fly : JIT'..
...losing both of them - in 2 years..
a man boi : with the world turned against him...
with added 'advantage' of being a frankenstein..
: that 0 : was way black : er.
but i did survive...and did thrive..
that kind of 'protection'...
is weird to explain...
makes u believe in a higher force..
.which keeps showing itself in different things