I have the 'ending' of #banglaHole
i did struggle with it...
but then : the 'choices' created by 'devis' of google cloud...
did take away the 'guilt'...
i wanted to finish it last year..
but it seemed 'incomplete'..
the problem with 0 journey : is a sort of ptsd..
u never know how low your 0 would go..
coz the fake 'promises' and people : do induce a 'reaction'
But it has it rewards - the thinking, the revisit to those 'metaverse' restore points in 'choices'
the 'self bias' calibration : is just a part of it..
few learnings became clear..
'marriages' are a lost concept for me..
religion : is fake and tempered : 'powered' by +ve hockus pockus
which doesnt have a 'chance' in capitalistic society
capitalistic marriages : companies/llp and other captialistic identities
are the only real and practical way to have 'weighted/balanced' associations
coz the 'law/judiciary' of it : is a planned humiliation ritual
to rob 1 of his 'soul' - ego/esteem
and material worth - money/assets and kids
Giving up on relgion : for me : has been absolutely rewarding..
coz from the top up : the pendtidasses of my former religion : gave up on karma/dharma
fake/forced hockus pockus and no 'karma' to 'learn/teach'..
creates huge ancestral karma : which makes this 'karma' to be transferred to all marriages they perform : tainting them
these marraiges : then become a quest to balance 'money' or 'lakshmi'..
and hindu capitalistic marriages : collapse on themselves : either by weight of itself.
or the combined karma of capitalistic kuks dependent on this 'religious' bond of 'marriage'
I know : this sounds like 'sour grapes'..
but for me : i ve travelled far and wide
in life all around me..
not a couple in love..
but in duties, in vacations and the combined weight of 'home'..
as defined by hindu values : RSS
a Home : a hindu home : is not practical or feasible..
but all the best : who have the 'balance' : our lives are individualistic..
so are our values and evolution of it.
religion : is never complete till a 'balance' is there..
i think : the balance : is here now : logical and 'complete'
the novels : can be truthful now : as much as the capitalistic world allows them to be.
a spark : which was felt : but never 'debugged'
debugging the 'spark' : makes it easy
thats the secret : no veronica knows. 🙂