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a pattern : which u ll notice...
the nicest people u know .... will disappear...from social life..
...a decade...few years...
or they might not disappear...but they ll fade...lose the 'spark'...
it happens all the time...
it happens to us
the problem seems like work and just life : matrix pumps too much noise into brain..
and too much 'missing out' or things/places to visit..
we do end up : achieving some of those 'photographs'..
but people : who are in that picture..would fade away with 'life'..
choices : seem to be a small word to describe the 'why' of it all..
It is always some alpha/sigma/leader whose wishes or intents..would crush some1's life..
but it is not accidental in many cases.
Karan Bajwa : and taking on him..seemed like 'optional' for me..
coz what 'chance' did i have : as a 0..?
seemed daunting. impossible.
but - still a 'choice'
a dharma : which seemed impossible.
yet the why of it..was impossible to 'accept'
the guy : his ego : his absolutely worthless existence : seemed to overpower all
mine : just another example of google/global levels
the 'swiftness' and the 'plan' 'time' and execution ...
seemed 'perfection' : work of some sensei.
And i was an engineer : a burnt up lazy engineer : who thought sales would be 'new'..
a lamb.
but I loved 'debugging' : no matter how big the problem is ..
it is always some 'assumption' based on limits of 'perfection' of the 'coder'
Karan bajwa : could ve never coded.
His moves : big, klunky and loud
...its sold as 'leadership' in global markets
my intents : were clear : make a living masterpiece
who is universally and undeniably : a devil of non nice looks or intents/function/thruput/utility
basically work of sloppy engineering - dna, algos and investment.
i am an engineer afterall.
Mitesh : already scared to his bones
Amit : life is going to get even 'sweeter'...
and the future/kids : already 'planning' : as they learned from elders.
I feel a lot of good karma : coz i wasnt the 1st, but i will be the last.
a masterpiece baldie :
my sole creation :
a walking, talking, hollow shell of a man
Hope.
further thoughts...
Met your 'maker' ? 😝
: sort of : a better 'engineer'. 😘