The pattern for me has been much wider....
If 1 loses his father...
it is a much bigger loss than money...
knowledge - is more important : worldly know
It is a dual edged sword though .... fears are also taught..
as the youngest 'son' to my familia...ancestry...
loss of father, grandfather and my own health
it seemed too 'coincidental'...
but 'thinking' becomes expensive...
when 1 is filling in bigger shoes..
which cant be filled - with money, accomplishments -anything...
the 'work' : is dismissed as flukes...
frankenstein looks : make it a 'joke' 😀
nothing of this was 'new'... at google...
it is the 'scape goat' thing...
it is a pattern...
a pattern - which is deeply 'inserted' into new hindu.exe..
'sharma ji ka beta' - iit aims ias : all those things...
are existential crisis for any kid...
and if the entire 'name' depends on it...phew...
u got to dog it out...
my life .... became a 0, coz i was marked - as scape goat..
my most people...
useful as 'tool'...
but not 'nice' to be seen with...
xoz of largely - my simpler ways, cars, speak and non page 3 manners
i had 'money'...but too little for things i wanted to do..
but peeps - who had 'needs' and 'wants'..
so short - thats how few 2 decades of solid doggery becomes 0...
and i get it - money is the religion.
Being a father...
really puts a ? on 1s existence..
am i making another 'nice'?
or something different?
should i teach him 'kukness'?
at what age - should i try teaching him sigma-ness...
sensei-ness - using women/body as 'tools'?
i dint want him to teach all that...
being too 'comfortable' to push all in - for money...
never motivated me..
but this is legacy, a surname - whether its a burden..
or his pride?
i am just ensuring that.
My kid - would be proud.
Thats the 'win' for me.
in now.
tomorrow.
...N
😘
🤞
further thoughts...
btw : religion is supposed to 'father u'...
but thats whats missing in new hindu.exe : all in, no out...fytness : seems to be a practical indicator of chakras, it seems..
brit peeps : ensured this loop for 'hindu.exe'...made it just a political slogan which gives u - 0
while green.exe - their god provides - ironically even today : courtesy 'mother' sikular govt.
choices - are too less...even for me..
and they will become even less... if no 1 fighty.