"50 searches last week" - thats a lot of searches...

You have to understand my dilemma in all this...

i like solitude
no one really gets it
i always did.
peeps thought i was joking...
i was not.

I also understand 'know'/'flow' and the duty which comes with it..
if 1 has an idea/a thoth : which is true/constructive : 1 has a spiderman like duty to realize it
for God, seems to have a 'condition' for 'flow'
understanding of this force - makes the 'know'

hence this 'flip flop' - i want to work...
but priorities keep changing...

I only know what worked for me...
work and good sleep

hence this.

Thanks for all the 'invisible' love/hate...
i do appreciate it.