Generational 'curses' are not 'hocus pockus'

they are patterns instilled and executed by 'parents' and largely - a habitus

the delusional thing : was my generational pattern

hard to admit...but it seems to be my ancestral karma

males/providers : defeated by familia : mostly spouse

this is a very difficult pattern to 'spot'...
and even more difficult to 'debug'

for it becomes a way of life - a set of manners, a suite of test cases of an ancestral line - surname and all

mental 'delusions' : were a known thing...
too known to familia...

the 'hack' was real... cox the 'intel' was real
the actors - paid top 'hopes or $' cos lots of free money was there..

it was a surety : few months of 'wait' and $...
and it all goes along - like 'strategized'

purpose - logic and being unyielding with it...
no matter what the 'result' is ...

is the path of 0
fear goes away...a bit by bit
it is a long journey....to self.

not for the faint of heart.